Here's to unknown celebrations in the coming months.
Since my birthday a few months ago, there have been various instances that have felt so universally intentional, it's as if the underlying energy that pierces all our hearts with the same connecting thread, has been yelling, "HEY! Hey, you! You know what you're supposed to do! And, even if you don't, I do, so I'll keep throwing all kind of coincidental shit your way to remind you!" (Yes, the higher spiritual energy we're all a part of curses.)
It worked.
My first class was tonight; few times in my life have I felt like I was in the right place at the right time, but this was wholly the feeling this evening. Which is, in and of itself, so thrilling. It's even more thrilling, though, as a barometer of all that's to come in these next few months and beyond. When setting intentions for my practice, I mainly try to stay open to the experience. But, I would be stifling much intense fervor if I didn't admit to a childlike giddiness about what's ahead. And, though I'm aware of impending discomfort and difficulties - to which my very stiff down-dogs tonight could attest - they do not diminish my palpable enthusiasm for what this whole, crazy transformation is going to consist of.
So my intentions are to be open and giddy.
My instructor tonight passed along the insight, "Stop living in wishful thinking and live in the world you wished you lived in." Because when one stops wishing and starts living, there are serious changes and serious choices that are scary and uncomfortable, even if those means give the desired end. It's a hell of a lot easier to not make difficult changes and keep wishing things would magically change on their own than to actually employ decisive change. This seems to be exactly where I've been. For this, tonight's intense relevance holds particularly incredible meaning. The most pivotal choice was that I stepped into that program tonight - and I was met with a resounding "Shazam!" This is what I've been wishing for, for a long time and I stopped wishing and started living tonight.
It worked.
My first class was tonight; few times in my life have I felt like I was in the right place at the right time, but this was wholly the feeling this evening. Which is, in and of itself, so thrilling. It's even more thrilling, though, as a barometer of all that's to come in these next few months and beyond. When setting intentions for my practice, I mainly try to stay open to the experience. But, I would be stifling much intense fervor if I didn't admit to a childlike giddiness about what's ahead. And, though I'm aware of impending discomfort and difficulties - to which my very stiff down-dogs tonight could attest - they do not diminish my palpable enthusiasm for what this whole, crazy transformation is going to consist of.
So my intentions are to be open and giddy.
My instructor tonight passed along the insight, "Stop living in wishful thinking and live in the world you wished you lived in." Because when one stops wishing and starts living, there are serious changes and serious choices that are scary and uncomfortable, even if those means give the desired end. It's a hell of a lot easier to not make difficult changes and keep wishing things would magically change on their own than to actually employ decisive change. This seems to be exactly where I've been. For this, tonight's intense relevance holds particularly incredible meaning. The most pivotal choice was that I stepped into that program tonight - and I was met with a resounding "Shazam!" This is what I've been wishing for, for a long time and I stopped wishing and started living tonight.
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